sometimes

sometimes i wonder, what would actually happen if i still have you like i used to?

sometimes i wonder, all the situations that i deal with.. will i deal it differently i if i still have you like i used to?

sometimes i wonder, would i oftenly cry like a baby when life hits me hard if i still have you like i used to?

sometimes i wonder,
yet sometimes i still and always wonder..

how would it feels if you still listen to every heartbreak of mine?

how would it feels if you still trust me everytime i want to kill myself?

how would it feels if you still catch me to get me up and not to surrender to life?

commit

aku memang tak boleh tahan dengan orang yang tahu dia ada komitmen tapi pura-pura tak tahu tak respon buat-buat macam tak wujud. kalau dah rasa malas, kalau dah rasa tak berminat, kalau dah rasa tak nak join.. bagitahu. sekurang-kurangnya bukan diam.

aku langsung tak ada masalah kalau orang cakap tak mahu teruskan ke apa ke nak quit ke tak nak terlibat dah ke. tapi aku memang bengang dengan perangai macam sesumpah diam tak nak bagi respon.

sekurang-kurangnya hormat posisi. sekurang-kurangnya hormat rakan sekerja.

sebab bila kau ada rasa hormat, komitmen yang kau pegang tu.. sekurang-kurangnya kau tak buat macam tak ada apa-apa.

bertanggungjawab sikit dengan komitmen boleh? semua orang ada komitmen masing-masing. aku tahu. kau pun tahu.

aku tak minta sikit pun. belajar hormat orang. kita bukan budak kecil. kita bukan budak tadika. kita budak universiti.

ya tuhan, aku memang bengang.

i guess you know why we are called committee? yes. because we suppose to commit ourselves until our responsibility is being done.

bengang.
sumpah bengang.

sabar macam tak jadi apa. nak mengamuk bukan budak kecik. aku mengamuk betul-betul kan. main, main jugak. tapi, buat program kena serius.

bengaaaaaaaaangnya.

I CANNOT ACCEPT, TOLERATE OR COMPROMISE MYSELF WITH THIS KIND OF ATTITUDE.. AT ALL.

PISSED OFF.
LITERALLY.