Saturday, February 4, 2017

miracle


sebab lama sangat tak tengok cerita sedih kan, since all this while aku selalu avoid cerita yang boleh mengundang tangis sebab malas nak layan perasaan..

haaa, aku decide nak tengok miracle in cell no. 7, since kolej aku ni masih kosong tuhan je la tahu laju tahap dewa internetnya. boleh marathon live movie masyaAllah sistur ingat tujuan balik awal haha okay okayy.

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macam orang gila haaa menangis siap tersedu-sedan. dah memang bergelap macam wayang. seorang diri pulak fokus dengan cerita. tuhan je la tahu perasaan aku.

tambah pulak semalam papa baru je balik naik bas sesudah menghantar aku ke kedah ni haaa.

*sambung bergenang air mata*

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speechless.
sebab all out sangat emosinya.

tak boleh tahan.
nak sambung menangis lagi boleh tak?

walaupun aku dah tengok movie ni empat tahun lepas,
tapi..
T____________T

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malam, terengganu.


Wednesday, February 1, 2017

please ask god


hey. i still cry for you, even after all these years. could you do me a favour? pray. pray that i can really knock you out from my heart. please ask god to give me a hand. please ask god on behalf of your favour because mine seems does not work that well. please ask god. it has been so long. i suffered. i suffocated. i just could not stand this anymore. i would kill myself because the pain is so real. please. go. away. it hurts. it hurts too much. it hurts too long. i am going to die for heartaches. please ask god to let me go. please ask god to really, really help me as i am very, very hopeless. please.

i hate you for this. i swear i hate you for every tears that keep running down my cheeks, for every aches when i endure those silly silent tears just to pull back myself together.

i swear i have been trying really, really hard to the stage that i hope i will catch an amnesia.

I
SWEAR
I
REALLY
HATE
YOU
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