is it really hard?

the beginning is not easy. it will always be the toughest one. hey, stay strong. you will get by. you can. believe in you. why won't? you are doing good. soon you will handle great. hey, things get better. and all that matters, you. you draw your own dream. you walk your own path. stay. stay there. 

adjusting

well. semester 6 has ended. since i have months to go before stepping into final year, well of course i need to cope with two months of practicum ii at ipd yeayyy, but along the way i decide to get myself back on the track.

i need to start all over again. what it means by starting again? i define it as going through all the books which i already bought but ignored since i keep telling myself that i have no time to work on it.

nahhh. i have times. in fact i have plenty a lot of times for books. but i thought in otherwise so i dont realize that i keep using my times for facebook, instagram, youtube and etc.

again, i deactivate them temporarily on purpose of i can have a real life. things that i want to do. things that i have always wanted to do. i need to start all over again with books. because i have been living like urghhhhhhhh i dont know but i just need my old passion. yeah. i am enjoying life. but i know i am more enjoying life back then. hey. i enjoy life with books. how can i stop just because i thought i got no time? duhh.

and, i purchased netflix, of course the free one month trial, so that i can watch the series of unfortunate events. hey it is adapted from the books i love the most to read back then in form five at the library. and i am still looking all the series of the book but i have not found it.

hey. it is good to write again. i feel the burden has been strike off. what burden? i cant tell because i cant figure it out. it is just the feeling when you just want to have a really good hot chocolate and laying down under the mat watching the starry night sky and yeah, you got your books beside. and you dont feel tired. yeahh. i just dont want to feel tired anymore. it is so tiring to feel tired out of nowhere.

well. till then.