Tomorrow

Benci betul dengan diri aku yang sekarang-
makin jahat.

Hidup-
macam entah apa-apa.

Oh, esok Speaking Test MUET. Aku ni, paranoid tak bertempat kalau nak pergi tempat baru. Urgh. Nka kena pergi SMKTM pulak dah yang memang aku tak pernah jejak kaki hokeyyyy perkara yang aku paling tak suka is, being a stranger. Demmit. Ingat lagi dulu macam ni lah perasaannya sewaktu nak pergi interview maktab urghhhhhhhh dem dem dem. Tapi, waktu tu ada je orang yang pujuk aku suruh pergi, tak-ada-apa-yang-nak-dirisaukan. Oh, aku percaya apa yang dia cakap then aku pergi, completely finally being a cool stranger haha at least for myself and you know what, I got the best experience ever.

Jadi, ceritanya esok dah takde sape dah nak pujuk-pujuk suruh jangan takut jangan paranoid tak tentu hala hahaha unfortunately that's me. -_- I AM FREAKING NERVOUS SWEAR TO GOD I AM SOOOOOOOOOOOOO NERVOUS. Okay, tak payah nak drama sangat laa kan. Tomorrow will be doing just fine. Dan, aku tak perlu sape-sape dah nak pujuk aku suruh aku pergi or pergi menggentel dekat sape-sape dan cakap yang aku takut. No way. You are much braver now. Kan. See, life turns you into another person. Somehow it's good but somehow you yourself know that it's awfully terrible to change on something. And, no worry. I have move on. I moved on.

Because YOU, had taught me that no matter how much I feel loved by someone I love-
they will not stay in your life forever.

Tell me, who will?

So I told myself, "You gotta get up and move on. No one can care yourself best unless you yourself. Be a brave girl. Speak up for your words. And, do not let people ruin your life. Even if you have to be alone, be. 'Cause it's better than having someone who mess your life up. You know why? It's hurt to dependant on someone that you know will be leaving you for no reason. And finally, one leaves. And, it is reaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaally stab your heart. See? Be tough."

And here I am.
Living.

Fuhhh. Tomorrow. Will. Do. Just. Fine.